Polishing and Polishing

This post is coincidental to the last one, but is something I found in Karma Yeshe Rabgye's book The Best Way to Catch a Snake recently:

Once, many years ago, before I became a monk, whilst visiting India, I went to see a Rinpoche to get some profound personal instruction.  I wanted him to give me a practice that would be so effective that I would reach enlightenment in a few years, and then I could boast about my secret practice to my friends.  After about thirty minutes with him, I went away quite disappointed.  All he said to me was this: at the end of each day, I should sit quietly and review all my actions and emotions for that day.  I should think of what was good and what was bad: the bad things I should make a conscious effort to avoid doing again, and the good things I should make a conscious effort to continue doing.  I thought to myself, that's it?  That's your profound teaching?  But after doing what he said for a few days, I started to get the point.  What he was asking me to do was take responsibility for my actions and pacify my mind.  That is profound.  (pg 144-145)

Elsewhere, he writes:

One thing that all these [Buddhist] practices have in common is that they are all skillful ways which lead to wisdom.  In Buddhism, "wisdom" means understanding the true nature of all phenomena and the lack of a true self.  But before we are able to rest our minds in this wisdom, we first have to pacify it and loosen the grip of the three poisons.

This is where a lot of people get stuck.  They hear that Buddhism brings peace of mind, and because they have some psychological problems, they get drawn straight into one of the various Buddhist paths, such as some medieval Tantric practice, and invariably end up going to a retreat without first taming their minds.  Once they are all alone in a room and start analysing their minds, they do not like what they see.  All their psychological issues come to the fore, and they start getting mentally unbalanced.

I have personally seen people go into retreat and become psychologically unhinged.  Some believe that the Buddha is talking to them, others think they are reincarnations of the Buddha, some see hand prints appearing on the walls as a sign of their spiritual achievements, or they start getting paranoid.  This is because they did not begin with calming their minds and understanding their issues.  These people invariably walk away from Buddhism thinking that it doesn't work, and that it has just made them worse.  It is extremely important to first build a foundation. (pg. 127-128)

It's not a cool or glamorous, but a basic foundation in Buddhist conduct and self-reflection makes a huge difference in one's experience.

Holding Oneself to A Higher Standard

img_7300I remember seeing these kind of preachers in college a lot (and in Japan, especially during New Years), and I always just shake my head. It’s a very childish, almost spiteful attitude towards others (you’re a sinner, nyah nyah).

Since Buddhists are on the list, let me explain something.

The Buddha was no slouch. He held his disciples to pretty high standards through the Five Precepts for lay people, the Ten Good Actions¹ and the 250+ rules and regulations for the monastic order.² That doesn’t even include the Bodhisattva Precepts of the Brahma Net Sutra.

But he never humiliated or insulted his disciples if they made mistakes (he didn’t take crap either from people who attributed stuff to him that he did not say, though). He held no ill-will toward anyone, though. 

Instead, he pushed his disciples to reflect on their own conduct based on whether they were skillful or non-skillful, wholesome or self-destructive. That’s what the precepts and such are for: an independent, mutually understood standard to measure oneself against. Buddhism isn’t just about meditation and silly mantras and gurus, it’s about continuous self-reflection and “polishing” oneself no matter how long it takes.  

As the Buddha said to his son, Rahula:

“What do you think, Rahula: What is a mirror for?”

“For reflection, sir.”

“In the same way, Rahula, bodily actions, verbal actions, & mental actions are to be done with repeated reflection.

That, in my opinion, is a more mature attitude toward spirituality.

¹ Also known as the kusala-kammapatha in ancient Pali language, these are not vows like the precepts, but ten wholesome acts that generally free oneself and others from misery. They are:

  1. Not to take life
  2. Not to steal
  3. Not to commit sexual misconduct (abusing others sexually, adultery, etc)
  4. Not to tell lies
  5. Not to slander
  6. Not to verbally abuse others
  7. Not to talk on frivolous matters
  8. Not to entertain greed
  9. Not to entertain ill-will
  10. Not to (knowingly) entertain views that contrary to the Dharma

² Also known as the Prathimoksha.  Nuns had 300+ rules for some reason (welcome to pre-modern, patriarchal life).  The rules were usually given after some incident by the monks or nuns, so the Buddha had to lay down new rules to keep them inline.  The Buddhist community depended on the good-will of the lay people and the king, so it was important to regulate themselves.  Further, it creates fewer distractions for a monk/nun who ideally is supposed to be dedicating themselves full-time to the Dharma.

Bad Buddhism Summary

This Simpsons episode is a great example of a bad summary of Buddhism:

A few things to point out:

  • The “buddha” statue there is not the Buddha, nor do Buddhists worship the fat Buddha.
  • The Dalai Lama is the 14th incarnation of the Bodhisattva (not Buddha) Avalokiteshvara, or so Tibetan tradition teaches.
  • The term “suffering is caused by desire” is a misnomer.  More details here.
  • Carl is such a nice guy.  He would never go psycho on anybody.  Lenny on the other hand…

On the other hand, the writers did nail the “all things are empty of an inherent existence” part.

Family Guy made similar blunders:

  • The fat Buddha.  (sigh)
  • Buddhism teaches “rebirth” not “reincarnation” and yes, while it is possible to be reborn as an animal, there’s a lot more background to that.
  • The “don’t believe in demonstrating emotions” comment is weird and makes no sense.  Buddhism doesn’t teach people to be Vulcans.  Well, maybe a little.


Is The Noble Eightfold Path “Right”?

I found this really nice quotation recently in a book titled The Best Way to Catch a Snake by Karma Yeshe Rabgye:

I also want to say something about the use of the word ‘right’ in describing the eight elements of the [Noble Eightfold] path.  The word in Pali [language] is samma, and ‘right’ is the way it was been translated into English, but it doesn’t capture the meaning quite accurately.  The world right sounds moralistic and makes one think in terms of right and wrong, or correct and incorrect, but that is not how the Buddha intended it to be.  ‘Appropriate’ would be a much better word.  Appropriate actions will lead you away from dukkha, whereas inappropriate actions will lead to more dukkha.  So please bear this in mind when you study the Noble Eightfold Path. (pg. 131)

This is probably one of the best explanations of the Eightfold Path I have come across.  Enjoy!  🙂

P.S. For more on the meaning of the Buddhist term dukkha, see my last post for more detail.

Enough is Enough

I’ve been sitting on this post for a while.  I liked the little animated gif above, but couldn’t find a good post to use it in (Youtube version here), then I found this blog post about a certain Tibetan Buddhist group that is … controversial.  This part really spoke to me:

After it’s break-away from Tibetan Buddhism, the NKT became much more fundamentalist and purist than its predecessor. They removed all books from their Dharma centres that were not written by the NKT Guru, and advised their practitioners to only read their Guru’s books. The NKT wants its followers to have only one source of information on the Dharma, or spiritual truth: their source.

When they choose some of their new followers to becomes teachers, they are instructed to teach directly from these books, and not from any other source of information….Over time, the ‘teacher’ becomes like a mindless parrot, with no understanding of their own to share and only speaking the words they have been told to speak. When they are asked a question about the Dharma, they do not refer to their own understanding, but will often begin their thoughts and speech with “my Guru says.”

During my time with Jodo Shinshu Buddhism, particularly toward the end when I sought ordination, I started to feel similar pressure.  The Jodo Shinshu community in the US has been recently undergoing a kind of fundamentalist revival, driven by the home temple in Japan, and I started to notice the same patterns.  I was told as a ministerial-candidate to only recite sutras that were part of that tradition, and to only teach sermons that were based on quotations from the founder, Shinran (1173 – 1263).

I remember asking the minister at the time why, and she had said something to the effect that it’s important not to mix teachings from other traditions because people will get confused.  She was so worried about doctrinal purity, that to me it felt like the purity of the doctrine was more important than what the doctrine actually taught.

But it wasn’t just one minister either.  When I took the online courses for ordination, I remember feeling similar misgivings.  We had a cursory overview of Buddhism as a whole, and Buddhist history, but we spent a lot more time learning the Jodo Shinshu tradition, and why it was so great.  This really bothered me because were just supposed to assume it was a great tradition because the course said so, but since my background in Buddhism had been more eclectic (and by this point I had been studying on my own for almost 10 years) and I just couldn’t see why it was so great.  I discussed with the minister-instructor, who is a great guy and well-versed in Jodo Shinshu tradition, but was still unconvinced. Behind all his great, rational arguments, I still felt the same contradiction.

Jodo Shinshu Buddhism has some things going for it, but the empty self-praise really started to bother me.  I know other Buddhist traditions do it too (Zen and Nichiren for example), but I didn’t want to just be a mouthpiece for a certain tradition.  I wanted to become a minister so I could actually preach something I believed in, not something I was told to do. Behind all the crappy, low-production videos and blog posts I’ve made is my sincere intent to share what I’ve learned about Buddhism with other people, even when I get it wrong.

September of last year, I finally gave up (first post on the blog here…I think), and parted ways with the community, and haven’t been back since.  For a long time, I took down all my old Jodo Shinshu posts, and tried to pretend the whole experience never happened. Despite having been there for years, and letting my kids grow up there, I threw it all away, and to be honest it’s been bitter-sweet.  Mostly bitter.

I miss some aspects a lot, particularly all the wonderful people I knew in the temple, and the fun of teaching “basic Buddhism” courses there.¹  I miss the big community celebrations, and the eclectic mix of people who grew up Buddhist and those who like me had converted.

But now that almost a year has passed, I am so glad I left.  It’s been a painful and lonely year at times, with lots of false starts, but it’s also spurred me to explore new things, and challenge myself.  It also prompted me to learn Sanskrit among other things.  There’ve been times when I missed Jodo Shinshu and Pure Land Buddhism in general so badly that I really thought about going back, but those times have become fewer and fewer, and as I delve into other teachings and traditions,² the hole in my spiritual life has slowly been filled in other, more constructive ways.  The constant tension I felt in my life for years between what Jodo Shinshu taught, and what I felt the Buddhist sutras taught is no longer there.³  It made for good blog material, but in the end I couldn’t reconcile the two.

Since parting ways, a few of my old friends and colleagues at the temple have asked me to come back, but I have chosen not to do so because I wasn’t ready to go back.  I may visit some time soon, just to say “hi”, but I know I am not the same person I was a year ago, struggling with a crisis of faith. I feel a lot more confident about the Buddha-Dharma in general, and thanks to encouragement from people here and on the Youtube channel, I know I made the right decision.

The Buddha-Dharma is like a deep ocean, with lots of treasure. The more you dive in, the more treasure you bring up. When a Buddhist tradition is so insecure about itself that it tells you not to dive in further to find more treasure (or only look for treasure in one particular spot but stay away from other spots), that’s a red flag. Yes, it is vital that you put those teachings into practice too, and not study for study’s sake (a mistake I frequently made), but you should never be told to only stick to tradition, or that it’s wrong to mix teachings.

In the end, a Buddhist tradition is only there to facilitate you on the Buddhist path. It’s important not to just rely on your own intuition, but at the same time, if a tradition is holding you back, you need to let it go, and take up something else that is more appropriate. And if that doesn’t work, try something else. It’s important not to lean on a teacher or teaching:

You have to think for yourself even when it’s inconvenient and uncomfortable.

So, in a sense, I feel like a new student again, but I like what I am learning, and I hope I can continue for the forseeable future.

Namo tassa bhagavato arahato samma sambuddhassa

¹ Those too were getting curtailed because of concerns they didn’t align with Jodo Shinshu teachings, even though the previous year I had submitted the material beforehand for approval, and after some corrections, did get the OK to teach.

² Karma Yeshe Rabgye’s books and podcasts have been particularly helpful for me.  It was something I needed to hear at the right time.

³ I realize some people will take issue with this, and try to demonstrate that the Buddhist sutras teach Jodo Shinshu doctrine.  I respect their opinions, but I’ve already reached my own conclusion and have no interest in debating it.